“Whatever turns up, grab it and do it. And heartily! This is your last and only chance at it, For there’s neither work to do nor thoughts to think In the company of the dead, where you’re most certainly headed.”
“Validation is for Parking” - Rev. Edwina Perrin
“If I could just take this class,” I thought, “I’ll be good”. I’m not 100% sure what taking the trichology class would prove besides me having another piece of paper to validate my insecurity that I’m not good enough BUT this piece of paper says I am.
Truth be told, I’ve got a lot of papers that I’ve earned and I don’t NEED another. I’m already good enough, heck I’m already GREAT enough because God said so; I just don’t believe it at times.
Don’t get me wrong I’m all about learning new things, continuing education, and adding services to a business through certifiable trainings but there comes a time when we must put feet to that which has been learned and apply it for it to work instead of hiding behind the certifications, coursework, degrees, and accolades trying to cover the fear of being rejected or failing.
I’m a hairstylist by profession but I can be a shrinking violet when I look around me and see so many others whose gifting looks better than mine. When I compare myself to how I earned my licensure opposed to so many others who “always knew” they wanted to be a hairstylist when they grew up I can begin to feel inferior. It can happen when I look at another stylist braids for example and begin to think how they’re so neat and polished; while my mom has had to show me tricks of how to keep my hands in proper position ensuring the braid doesn’t look loose at the base in some areas I can tend to think “who’d want me to service them”?
But when l see myself through God’s eyes I see that I’ve not wasted an ounce of time and I lack nothing for the area and audience in which he’s called me to. I have come to realize that validation is for parking. God has already qualified me but looking for a stamp of approval from the world is fleeting at best.
God’s love for me started before being in my mother's womb and I’d be foolish to hide and compare my gifts to another. I’m to work at it with diligence for His glory. Emptying all of it back into the earth as He leads me without fear, shame, or guilt. Although the path I traveled to get here looks different, it is from that path I’ve learned to trust follow Jesus more and that’s all worth it.
Lord, forgive me when I’ve looked at the world for approval above You. Forgive me for comparing the gifts You’ve given me to another. Show me when, how, and where to use my gifts to bring You glory. I trust that where my feet will go You’ve been before me to prepare the way and the people You intend for me to reach. ~ Amen
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